Moving Forward, Moving On

Have you ever suffered from separation anxiety? I don't know if that's the right thing to call it. For the longest time, I thought I needed to be surrounded by people in order to fulfill my mission because I felt safer being a part of a team rather than out on my own. I guess that's what made me want to be in singing groups or in bands. I felt stronger with others who I hoped were on the same mission as I was.

I am learning that sometimes, standing up, means standing by myself. Don't get me wrong, I am always willing to join and work with others. I quite enjoy my relationships and sharing and supporting people who I love and respect. I often learn a lot from interactions on wisdom gained by shared experiences. However, the road I must travel to wherever I'm supposed to be belongs soley to me. The responsibility for reaching or not reaching my goals is my own. We cannot expect others to buy into our dreams to the same extent that we do, simply because they are not their dreams.... Each of us has our own.

So, as I go forward, it is imperative that I treat everyone who is in or has been a part of my journey with care and kindness for the part they play in helping me to make it to the next level. I am gaining more confidence daily, that the vision placed in my heart from as far back as I can remember will be fulfilled by diligent work, solid preparation and the building of a network that I can rely on for support, but not as a crutch to keep me from standing upright. The new season of my life sees me branching out with Carmen Miller Music as a brand. I am dabbling in event planning and promotion to create performance opportunites for myself and for others. I am fronting a band on my own name and working to build out a network of business partnerships to increase my gig schedule. It is all incredibly new. Taking control of my musical destiny (always prayerfully for God's direction) is a new and exciting experience. Creating new streams of revenue for myself and totally relying on God for his guidance and provision, is opening doors that I never knew existed.

I find now, that I no longer have limits, because I am no longer beholden to the opinions, and constraints of others. There is a level of freedom.... but freedom is a scary thing. there is also no one else to blame. This is where my planning and preparation skills come into play. I have to prepare for any instance, because without a solid unit, the people I choose to work with can sometimes flake or leave me high and dry potentially. (I pray that never happens....but the fact is, it could)... so I must be selective about who I choose to work with and how I choose to work. I must be much more discerning in my planning and accepting of jobs. This is where the rubber meets the road. I have faith that I am up to the challenge!!!

I am Carmen Miller Music

 

Much Love,

Carmen L Miller

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